How To People?
Sometimes I get really mad at my her... When I hit a wall in social cues or requirements. And I realize that the reason I can’t get past the wall is because I was trained to wholeheartedly cater to another persons paradigm and undo and lay aside all identity or personality. I was a robot, commanded and punished when I varied from the path or asked questions. I’m so tired of asking myself what a normal person would do. I’m tired of the hurt I carry around. Tired of the years of torment she put me through. I’m tired of hearing “you wouldn’t be the person you are today if you hadn’t gone through that.” Failing words from failing people. I don’t want to be broken, I want to be whole. And I will always be a little broken because no matter how many times I tried to put myself back together again, me and my happiness never really mattered. I bounced back a little at first. But after years of pain, the only thing that kept me going was my determination to stay alive and watch to make sur...